There and Back, #4

[mkultra]

This is how I see it. And by YOU, I mean WE.
A. You go on alone and be happy.
B. You go on alone and be lonely.
C. You go one with someone new and be happy.
D. You go one with someone new and be lonely.
E. You reconcile and be happy.
F. You reconcile and be lonely.

Some of these choices are not ours except the HAPPY ones. I guess in DB we are striving to reconcile and be happy. I see it all the time here. People forgive, reconcile, piece and create something stronger. But some are so hurt they move on and make an attempt with a "blank slate" that comes with a lot more problems. The grass is not greener but what an experiment. It does feel like someone is experimenting with our very lives and the lives of our proginy.

I never dreamed my H would leave his kids while they were this young. Honestly, my dad at least waited until we were in high school and dating. He was still there for every holiday and baseball season and report card. I guess people stuck it out for the kids back then, even through all the infidelities. I am not saying that is better, heavens no.

Morgan,
I know how you feel about feeling relieved knowing he is ot of town. Mine is too and I feel so much better knowing he will not be around the house or going to the movies with the OW or trying to make me feel guilty about having fun with the kids while he is gone. I love having the house to myself and the kids to myself.

I know how you feel about the nice other dads. That is my brother but then he is an uncle and goes home with his kids and my SIL and they watch us walk home alone. I love and appreciate them for being there bt I saw my SIL turn around and she started to cry at the sight of me carrying two bikes home with both kids hand in hand. Sometimes an extra pair of hands to hold is helpful and it used to be their own father's hands. Now I am crying. Stupid.