Thoughts on phone calls

[BryanS]

So, phone conversations with the W have been going well this week although I think I pushed too hard last night. I was feeling really off these past couple of days and was desperate for some kind of reassurance from her. I didn't make the mistake of flat out asking but I did push into some areas that I know I should stay out of. She was nice about it but not overly responsive. I keep repeating to myself that idea about not putting her in a situation where she has to respond to my desire to work it out with her desire to end it because that only reinforces the idea in her head.

This is hard. I knew it would be but there's a difference between knowing something's hard and sitting down and actually doing something hard. I just want to talk to my wife like I used to because she still knows me better than anyone else.