And, you know d*mn well I have NEVER suggested you settle. Your reply to me was defensive mumbo jumbo avoiding the issue.
Quitting without making a sincere effort to find a great M with H is taking the easy way out. You know it. And you know you have not done so -- you play nice, make things amicable, hide your true self to H, and have not risked laying it all on the line in case he decides to leave you at that point.
