Why am I willing? Because, in my case, the alternative is not all that rosey. I have a lot of history with my current H, he is my best friend (believe it or not), we have a great life together, we have a lot of the same interests, friends, morals (yes, morals) and what we are going through right now are symptoms of a disorder he has, a real disorder.

don't get me wrong, I am NOT giving him excuses. He is still responsible for his actions but he doesn't even have a clue as to how to change these things - thus the appointment on the 21st to see this new T that is supposedly experienced in this type of disorder. However, having said that, I think I owe it to myself and to our M to put myself out on a limb and see if this M can be saved, but it won't be without H's total effort too. If it is just me and he is back to his same ole ways, it ends, here and now

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)