Update: Went to IC today and asked talked to him about me being like my mom and h being like my dad. He said there is definately some similarities, but he didn't expand on it. We went into a session regarding how I'm feeling a little disconnected with marriage. About how I've gotten my emotions in control and how I'm starting to look inside the box and asking myself some real questions. My IC is PRO-marriage so with the me beginning to detach and very vulnerable, he puts our marriage more in a crises mode so he wants to see us both and being MC again.
You know, I asked myself a very hard question after my session. The question was, is my husband ever going to be able to do enough to make up for his infidelity. The answer is no. With that being said, I think it's time to move on - without him.