WAH-MLCer had a bad day yesterday, but at least he still communicted w/me. Plus, asking for some cash was a BIG step for him, even coming to my work for it.
So, when I was off work & he had picked child up, I decided to take child out for errands & dinner, leaving WAH-MLCer free to do as he chose. Even gave him a little more cash, so he wouldn't be "stuck" at the house.
Had a dejavue panic when he started txting at 10pm and at 1am txted he was tired and would see me tommorrow(his cell off)
He didnt come home & even though I freaked, I didn't go snooping for him. YEAH!!
He is only using txt, but sent a message saying he was sorry, I didn't do anything wrong & he doesn't understand why he isn't happy w/anything anymore.
My reply was I was sorry, understood, wish I could magically make it all better, we are partners and I can only help when he shares AND that I "still" believed in him.
THIS is a complete change in me, not only from last year, but overall. Now I need to re-read my DB book and focus on the depressive spouse.
Still GALing, working two jobs, started a home business & taking care of child/pets.
Going to a costume party in a few weeks w/WAH-MLCer - have ordered the playboy pirate costume & the thigh high boots. Maybe this will help snap his depression...ha, ha.
Thanks for letting me journal.
Still want to know when it is my turn to leave reality.......
MariS
"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"
Become the change you want to see.....
Me - 37 WAH - 35 child - 2yrs Separated - August '06 Married - 10yrs, Together 18 Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08
