Okay it's been awhile so it's time for an update. Overall things are going very well. Spent some good family time, trips, this summer, and kid's are back to school. Some mixed emotions there because now W is back to her 14 hour days. She goes friggin 95 miles and hour, and does'nt stop. Crazy woman.

We're still in SSM land. I would'nt consider myself starving, but I can't seem to get my fill. It's baby steps, weird. Like the sun rises and sets. It's hard to see the movement if you watch continuously, but if you check every few hours it's easier to see. We've made huge progress from even a year ago. W is getting more and more comfortable with the physical stuff, but she's still not sexual.

I'm practicing the alpha male stuff. Flirting, backing off, then flirting some more. I'm feeling a little of the old COG mojo coming back. The fun, outgoing, fearless warrior that I am. I'm still a little reserved around her though, a little worried that the real me isn't good enough, what BS. Working through that though. I'm well aware she'd never find a better man than me. No better lover exists on this earth, no better friend, no better mate. I'm the best!

She knows the sex starvation is not okay with me. I'm not lettin up on her, not going to bury my head in the pillow. She can't hold out forever. Also, I've realized that I can survive without sex. I don't NEED sex, well don't really need it with a person. Fulfillment comes from within (and a nice soapy shower helps).

We both remain committed to the M. In fact more committed than ever. My W takes very good care of me and the kids. She's awesome really. Fun, connected, and beautiful. We're making future plans together, gradually meshing the finances back together. It's really hard to explain but she continues to soften, albeit very very gradual. It's the progress that continues to keep me hopeful.

I'm still the initiator of almost all the physical contact and it's getting more and more comfortable. She's got a great butt, almost perfect, and last night I could'nt keep my hands off it. And she did'nt keep my hands off it either.

God Bless,

COG

PS Still looking forward to moving out of the SSM forum, and into the next chapter.


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