We talked about what this separation really means last night. We are both genuine to each other and no pretenses. We agreed on all the rules. It is going to be a temporary timeout for us to sort things out. We will not be seeing other people. We will continue to tell the kids that I'm at work while I am not there. It's for me to get my life together and improve myself. It's time for her to have some space to work on her issues w/o pressure and anxiety from me and also observe the changes in me and make sure they are permanent. We will not be intimate, but we will continue to be loving and friendly towards each other like we have been during the time we have contact. We will only have contact during the time I'm visiting the kids. In time we hope we can move towards more interaction and progress with the M. There are no promises of time frame or what would happen. Just need to see after a while. To me, if I can continue to DB and improve myself, it increases the chance of her wanting to take me back. Just the fact that when she saw a flicker of confidence in me made her think that we may have a chance gives me encouragement. I am hoping that in couple months she may soften and agree to give Retrouvaille a try.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
