I have been trying to think about this, but more when I am very upset.
I was actually down (from court Mon) through last night. But I spoke with a friend late, and by then was starting to feel better. Still doing the loops in the roller coaster, but the spiral is on its way back up. I don't dip down quite as deep each time.
I would be so angry at a man who did this to a friend. I have to get some distance here, see him for what he is right now. I keep looking past too much, looking back to what he was and applying it to today. Things changed and I haven't kept up.
