Bleh. No, just vented for the hour and said the suicidal thoughts were gone (so no changes in meds). I'll give her a call tomorrow and see what she thinks.
I think I'll just go to bed. I feel like I can never get enough time in a row to stop thinking about this mess--court Mon, then kids with him tonight and tomorrow for dinner... I am feeling the need to get away again--looking forward to LI this weekend, and no contact from him from tomorrow night thru Wed evening.
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I can be independent. I can raise my children well. I can take care of my house and the chores needed to maintain it, or hire out what I can't do myself. I will continue meaningful work at my career, working with children and opening their minds to the gifts of visual arts. I will enjoy working with friends and our girls in scouting, trying new things and watching them grow strong and independent themselves. I will continue to grow and learn all sorts of new things for my mind and my body.
I can manage my life, all by myself. And there are days when the beauty of the sky, or a spider web, still stops me in my tracks. I can notice and be grateful for the small things, like a brief flower-scented breeze. Or the sound of giggles down the hall.
