no you're absolutely right and that's where I am Sparkles. I agree with you that his anger actually means he still cares. (Why he's taking that cow out?...well it doesn't matter because he IS free to do that now.)
I'm just being me. Focusing on our D, taking care of her, our house, etc. and living one day at a time. My PMA (accidentally typed PMS ) is actually pretty high right now.....I know it can come crashing down.
I'll be honest, I think part of it is this other fella paying me a bit of attention. It's nice to feel wanted, even if I am leery of his intentions LOL
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
) is actually pretty high right now.....I know it can come crashing down. 
