How long have you been separated? 5 months Do you understand what happened to cause the separation? MLC-lack of honesty and my choke hold What do you think your partner thinks of you (now, then)? Now-knows that I am/was the best friend, lover etc. he would ever have but tenative to believe who i have become. Then - EXHAUSTING
How does your partner behave towards you now? Gentle, sad
Are you able to understand your partners actions? Hmmmm dont like them
Do you seen any glimmer of hope for your R coming from your partner? Every now and then trying not to hope right now cause hope scares me
If so, how long did it take before hope appeared (following separation)? This past month What do you think caused that change in your partner? Reality - I left him alone
How regularly do you have *any* type of contact with your partner? Daily BUT I HAVE TO LET HIM come after me first!!UGH! How often do you see your partner? weekly
Is that often enough? For my heart right now yes
Have you gone through a 'dating period'? Made a promise to my d not till/if the BIG D But i have been asked out 3 times in the past month WIERD
Was that positive? NA/
Are you able to discuss your R at all or is that too dangerous? Did at first of month but now because of his issues and counselor it is time to slow down
What do you do with your free time? Work - spend time with daughter talk to son in college
How do you handle the feeling of being lonely, assuming you do feel that way? HATE IT and pray thats all I can do
What do you think about your partner (now, then)? Loved him then Love him now. See him now for who he really is though and it is funny - I knew him 20 years ago and then put expectations on him that weren't him....I loved the young guy and who he was and I love this guy!!
Do you still want to reconcile? Uhhhhhhhhhh yeah!!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
