I heard from somewhere or read from somewhere that your thinking of getting a tat????
COOOL!!
So did you decide what?? Where? Who?? As long as it does NOT HAVE A MANS NAME! Cuz then you have to figure out what the hell to turn that damn R into. Retard would not look good on my back!
Honey......your doing well you know. Even tho it's hard right now, I think your so much farther down that pathway than you can see......
{{HUGS}}}
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
ha ha ha - know what's funny? He wanted us to be "friends".....and I waited to see what he'd do on his myspace. I kept him on even though he's a jerk....but he removed me today.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
ha ha ha - know what's funny? He wanted us to be "friends".....and I waited to see what he'd do on his myspace. I kept him on even though he's a jerk....but he removed me today.
He removed you today? Awwww.....does this mean your OFFICIALLY divorced now....I mean, he had to go there huh...had to draw out the big guns and remove you from hispace. Big Baby. You see sweetie, this is the childish things you don't need right now. Your moving to far ahead of him in life and if and when he catches up to you......it's a whole nutha story!!
Do you know why we show so much strength on the outside but feel like our world is ending on the inside? Because we are sitting here dwelling on it too much......your outside strength is actually you. Your not going through the motions.....these are the normal motions that you've always had but suppressed them.....you are not a quitter! You do not lie down and woe is me your life away......your doing things. Oneday all this will be a memory to you, one that you'll cherish....just keep on your path.
A charm bracelet would be nice.......but I kinda like tat's too! Hehehe......tat's too......get it??
I'm thinking of what to do with that damn R.......probaly going to turn it into some vines and spread it across the back a bit more.....great, more pain caused by HIM!
Have a wonderful evening!! I'm off to vacuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum.
***Sparkles***
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
he said that he took himself off of mine so he wasn't in my business.
Now he's talking about church because he's still very angry.
I understand that. I feel bad for my part in it...but I was beat down for a long time. I do forgive him for his part...and despite ALL of this, I do love him. I just don't want to see him because I am tired of hurting and it's easier on me if I don't.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
he said that he took himself off of mine so he wasn't in my business.
Now he's talking about church because he's still very angry.
I understand that. I feel bad for my part in it...but I was beat down for a long time. I do forgive him for his part...and despite ALL of this, I do love him. I just don't want to see him because I am tired of hurting and it's easier on me if I don't.
Look, I am quoting this entire thing because it's all true. Yes, you've taken responsibility for your actions. Check it off....yes you still love him....check it off.....no do not see him right now because you are still grieving the coulda whoulda shoulda ofs...aren't we all. I see it as a positive that he took himself off yours cuz it wasn't HIS business....he could of said he took himself of cuz it was none of your business what he does.....
As hard as it may sound.....he needs to grieve also. In my opinion, it's good that he's angry....it means he has feelings. Anger is much better than that nonchalant who gives a shitz attitude. I don't want you to give up your hope....but neither do I want to see you giving up your life. Your PMA has a lot to play in what the outcome is.....whether with him or without him.
Your lovely, you have a wonderful personality....and so much to offer. Give it a try girlfriend! We grow stronger and stronger as each day passes....it does not mean our hope lessons....it simply means "we survive".
Now.....i still haven't vacuumed. DRATS! Gotta clean the turtle tank too. Double drats....I could triple drats this and mop the floors.....but ima still thinkin on that one.
Hugs sweetie
***Sparkles***
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
no you're absolutely right and that's where I am Sparkles. I agree with you that his anger actually means he still cares. (Why he's taking that cow out?...well it doesn't matter because he IS free to do that now.)
I'm just being me. Focusing on our D, taking care of her, our house, etc. and living one day at a time. My PMA (accidentally typed PMS ) is actually pretty high right now.....I know it can come crashing down.
I'll be honest, I think part of it is this other fella paying me a bit of attention. It's nice to feel wanted, even if I am leery of his intentions LOL
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
listening to my song on myspace and I have to wonder if that didn't also prompt him removing himself....
Artist: Daughtry Album: Daughtry Title: Over You
Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. Well I'm putting my heart back together, 'Cause I got over you. Well I got over you. I got over you. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
The "funny" thing about it is the red is why I put it up there. Of course I'm not "over" him, although like I said, seeing him with her, did give me some closure.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
Cuz then you have to figure out what the hell to turn that damn R into. Retard would not look good on my back!
) is actually pretty high right now.....I know it can come crashing down.