You have a dilema on your hands. As far as the love goes, it's a choice. I have read that the reconciliation phase can take as long as two years, but I've not experienced it so I can't offer much. The only thing I can offer is a a D'd Dad, sharing custody of my kids, it sucks. Your contact with B will not end, the influences of others in your kids lives will be out of your control and the people you may end up in a relationship with, will have issues of their own.
I have only found the greener grass where I have cultivated it, I haven't found it from a new R partner, YET. Am I better off? I think so, my XW exihibited no effort toward the M, she simply ran.
For you and B I don't think giving up is a solution. I understand your frustrations, but there is effort on his part. Try not to let the few negatives outway the positive. From what I've learned, the WAS will oscillate between behaior patterns initially. It is only with time and encouragement, that they will leave the addictive nature of the affair behind. I suggest you tell B exactly what you have told us. Let him read the post. He is nearing his last chance to get "clean". See how he responds.
You have many followers on the BB, I'm sure you will get more responses.
Been wondering how you've been. I know when your quite, your mind is working.
Use all of your DBing skills to restore your M. I believe it to be the best for everyone.
