hey guys!! I don't get here as often as I should and am really unsure where I should be posting. If you have read my sitch before then you know my road- My H is in therapy and is trying but I do keep catching him in lies and I am just getting to the point to where I was happier without him and this mess in my life. I am ready to walk away. I don't feel "in love anymore" I am questioning whether I even feel love.After all the lies it is hard to believe him with anything- I mean it's just small things that he has no reason to even lie about. Also his supposed to be Ex ow keeps popping up so she throws out things here and there and then I ask him and he lies, then I find out the truth a few days later and this time he swears it's the truth etc... I am just rambling I know but I am so at my wits end here.
Today his ex ow told me she had called him at work and they talked about one of my H's employees that was just killed in a car wreck. I had asked him if she had called him he said no, swore on the bible, swore on our kids swore on our marriage etc.. Looked me dead in the eye and lied. then I told him Iknew b/c she told me - he said oh yeah she called but blah, blah, etc... I mean why lie? the therapists has even told him he is going to have to be 150% honest with me about anything for this to work
I am ready to walk away. Not leave my kids but I can't handle these lies anymore. How much doI have to keep standing beside him and he keeps swearing this time is different just one more chance. my life is wasting while I stress about this and he just floats through- so it seems.
Hope this makes sense but I am soooo ready to just be on my own- I was truly happier that way- no worrying about his cheating, lying.
Do I cut my loses now or tough it out for the kids?
I am not happy in my M at all.
Lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
