OT, I totally understand where you're coming from. I truly do! I had nothing better to do at lunch except for drive around and do some thinking. It occurred to me, and I've posted on how much I've been blessed, that I'm happy with my life, its comfortable. My H happens to be in my life and because the fit is comfortable, I keep wearing it. Yes, I understand that I can have a great marriage or I can have a not so great marriage. I have a choice. Unfortunately, and please don't think I'm copping out, I have cuts so deep and I'm aware that they will heal but our marriage will never be the same. Can it be better? Do scars heal? Sure they do, some better than others, it really depends where the wound was inflicted. Well, we all know that the heart broken in a million pieces can't possibly be put together better. Okay, those that are able to put their marriage back together and have a better marriage because of it, well, they must be a better person than me. Can I do it? I'm sure I can, I've alway succeeded in anything that I've tried to do. Now, do I want to? That's another issue that I have to search deep into my soul and heart to find those answers. I'm confident that one day I'll know that answer without a shadow of a doubt.
