is sideways a direction?

[cire2]

Doing some thinking about all i've read, posted and thought about in the past few days.

There is so much of our lives that get wrapped up in our emotions for the "moment". I really believe this is ultimately unhealthy.

If it isn't a knee jerk reaction, (which is usually not beneficial), then it is a recoil into our own self. We dwell and analyze to death.

This is most noticable with R's but it can be in our everyday life. We can get paralyzed in our work, our lack of work, our family, friends, or even interaction with strangers.

What seems to work for people is a kind of muscle memory. Where our responses are not thought out but come from habit about being satisfied in our own skin.

I am no different from anyone going through this life, and I have been fighting my own inner demons as of late. The sharp pain seems to have given way to the dull ache and it has become all consuming in thought. Like the constant drip of a faucet.

I'm not sure how to do it yet, so I will keep moving forward and try to keep my focus on what's in front of me.

My life...a blessing in disguise!

cire