Still Seperated and Hopeful

[mcojh]

I have been taking time for myself lately and really looking at what my future holds. Some days it seems so very very bleak. I don't mean to give the impression that without my W I cannot survive, it just is such a kick in the a$$ that my life and marriage has come to this.

A little update, CW has apparantly still pretty deep with the FOM. Yesterday I saw her with the FOM in his car. (We live 4 blocks apart.) That put me a little down. I had to work early this morning and fell off of the snooping wagon. FOM's car was at her apartment. I have totally cut off the asking her to do stuff, but I am still "there" for her and talk regularly. I don't know how to break that cycle. I have to talk to her about kid stuff and then she initiates other stuff. I try to end it as soon as I can, but alas I am weak.