Thanks for the heads-up. The belly-dancing sounds more fun, anyway ;0)
I wish I could understand what my heart might be sensing to keep hope--is there something really there, as intuition tells me? Or is it all wishful thinking?
IC says that we have to believe what he is saying, using his words, right now. The message, and how he has treated me as of late, all add up to him really being done. I have to work from there as the reality of things. But she did say that we can't predict if he will always be in that place. I want to push for answers (I guess because I am so tired), but she warned that will only lead to the place that I am certain I don't want to go.
Only time and space, now. Frustrating.
I mentioned that he had amost always accepted my influence in our R before, which makes it even more frustrating, now. She said that she did see that dynamic, that it wasn't necessarily healthy (I agree), and that we would explore that later in C. We both agreed that it is hard to see yourself doing that when the other person never complains that it is a problem, as were the other issues that came up--he kept it a secret, to himself, and just let resentment build.
I will have to address that, for both any future with H, as well as all of my other Rs.
