Theoden, Yes, the pregnancy really hurts. It's like a dagger in the heart. I guess OW did give him the one thing I couldn't...it's too bad she had to destroy him to do it. I am free. I am free of the drama, of the lies, and of the deceit. He has chosen his path and I will choose mine. I will live a life full of integrity and values and no one can ever take those away from me no matter how hard they try.
Mark, Thanks...my plan is to live a great life. It has given me the chance to look at life in a whole new way. I really hope I am able to eventually find a man who appreciates me.
Okay, XH finally showed at 4. I told him I thought he was going to be a no-show. He said I thought about it, but knew he had to do this sooner or later. I told him this is real you know. Yes, he said. He really is an @ss all the way to the end. He made some comment to me about smile this isn't the end of your life. I responded and said, no it isn't but it's the end of the life I knew. I was decent and civil with him to the end, but I was not going to goof around with him like everything was fine. I even went out in the 95+ degree weather to help him load some hay because no one else was able to. He made another smart comment about how we should have bought a 4-door pickup years ago. I told him...you should buy one now...he said I can't I don't have a rich wife anymore. When he left he came in the house and said well I guess that it's then. Sorry things didn't work out. I said yeah me too. He gave me a big hug and kissed me on the forehead. It's sad, but it's his mess now. I'm done.
