N'est pas. I have reserved them for the very deserving. Only the people I TRULY WANT to care about.
When I put them away, it is because they are no longer needed.
Now. There have been a few in my world ( and honestly many) who have wielded their own version of the PTS (pointy-toed shoes). Everyone carries them. They are not MINE. Quite honestly, the most profound and aching and last impact/most profound result of someone wielding them... was from Lil. I don't know if she remembers when she did it, or what it was about. But I do. Vividly. I hope I never forget it. It was a turning point for me, even tho I dropped off the boards after it for several months.
NOP ALWAYS kicked my azz. Mrs. Nop was always good for an azz kicking or two, or three. Honeypot nearly did me in, more times than I care to count. CeMar, in his own way, came in and taught me 5,000 things or two. He will always have a soft spot for me.
I can go on and on and on. And if I DIDN'T mention your name, it isn't because I have NOT learned from you. I learn from everyone. I learn from people calling B.S. on me.
Can I apply what I have learned... has always been MY issue.
Sometimes I do really well. Sometimes I fck up royal. Then I refer to LM's Rule 1. Thank GOD... the people with whom I fck up... are willing to forgive me. And thank God, when I fck up with people who are NOT willing to forgive me... I find the courage... usually around day three... to forgive myself.
