Well W won't let me have S overnight tonight after I mentioned that him and I had plans if she would let him stay with me, she backed right out of that to try and tick me off. She was so snide during the call, I just let it roll off my back.
What is tought to deal with is this balancing act between killing the R myself and wanting back in. A few days ago all she would have to do is look at me square and I would have been done, now I feel sort of vested in it again. I do have to say I didn't fall into the feelings as deep as before and I don't get as angry when she does something stupid. I guess the rollercoaster is sort of evening out.
I went and made other plans for tonight, so I know she'll show up thinking she has killed my night but she will see all done up and ready to go.
