Take it from someone who has done it all....ok not all...but I've got myself in a fair amount of trouble (hee hee);
Snooping NEVER, EVER works to your benefit. Here's my summary;
If you find something bad - you get hurt and perhaps everything falls apart when you might have worked beyond what you found without ever knowing about it.
If you "think" you found something bad, you both get hurt and a lot of damage is done.
If you don;t find anything bad, it will not necessarily (almost certainly not) assuage your concerns or suspicions.
In short, there is no good outcome that will come of it. When your mind starts getting away from you, remember what Mark Twain said (and I'll probably butcher this)...
"I have experienced a thousand horrible events in my lifetime...I even lived through a few of them!"
Stop thinking, you put yourself through hell and usually, what your thinking is way off the mark anyway.
I hope that help! Hang in there - I'm proud of you!!
