A helpful book for you may be "Getting Back Together," if you haven't already read it. This book taught me how a lot of healthy growth and healing occurs during separation. It also taught me that to reconcile too quicly is not always the best (a mistake my husband and I had made in the past). It was reassuring for me to learn that separation can be a very good thing. Also, this concept of separation being positive made a huge difference in the way I perceived my marriage. http://www.amazon.com/Getting-Back-Together-Relationship-Partner/dp/1558508627
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.