H just called me, even though I said I wasnt going to answer the phone.. And technically, I didn't, but I was on the other line so he knew I was home because he didn't get the machine. So I called him back. He says this to me:
"What are you doing today, are you busy? I need to talk to you. I love you, I miss you, I'm miserable without you, I just wanted some space, this is stupid, can I move back in?" I just sat there stunned.
Now, here is the crazy part. Yesterday, I was going to ask him the same thing, again, but this was before he didn't call back and I had all these revelations and I was accepting that this was how things were going to be.
So after a moment of silence... he asked me if I didn't want him to now. I said it wasn't that, it's just that I've done a lot of thinking about our relationship and how things were and we needed to talk. He said he understood and he's on his way over to talk.
I'm still in shock.
We'll see what happens. There's things I will stand firm on--he has to continue to try and help himself with the alcoholism, his "emotional unavailability," I want both of us to go to counseling to learn how to communicate and relate better...
I'm also different through all this and I want him to know that. I'm not going to be the silly co-dependent control freak that I was and that I will continue to get help for myself.
There's other things too, but those are the main ones.
And technically, I didn't, but I was on the other line so he knew I was home because he didn't get the machine. So I called him back. He says this to me:
