The lightbulb went off!!
I got it, I finally got it.

I sit and worry, cry and pray for my marriage and today something just clicked.
I'm following DR, but I also decided that I'm not the one who'll be losing out.
I made a list of what he'll be missing if he decides to give up on the marriage--that helps me realize he's got more at stake than I do.
Since he's in his truck almost all the time around the country instead of chosing home, he'll miss out on:
1)Our sex life (we had a great one--although he may find/have someone else there won't be that intimacy)
2)Home cooking -- I'm a great cook and he LOVES my cooking.
3)Family Time - loves his granddaughter and misses her
4)Social Time - no card games, no outtings, no guitar jams, etc
5)Church and God--
6)motorcycle
7)My family - real close to them, always doing gatherings.

Plus more -- he's the loser, I'll still have that and he can sit in his truck and thing about it. He's a very social person so I know it's going to catch up to him, maybe by then my GAL will be more in focus no matter the outcome.

Whew...now I've got to stay focused (easier said than done) by baby steps...


H is OTR driver - 48
Me 49
married 24yrs
2 sons, 22/20
H going thru MLC