I have spent 25 yrs with my H and I thought I knew him really well and sometimes I look now and think was there a side I never realized was there. I like you have gotten all the fault stories and he had some faults but not that many according to him. He sure isn't the man I married. His dad had Affairs and he hated that and now look at him he has turned into his dad.. Its hard to figure. I have a hard time because he will call and act happy and how are things with me and like there is nothing wrong just like we are happily married but she gets the fringe benefits and he gets to do what he wants. We are in a financial business deal with his brothers so I have to talk to him so I keep up on what is happening so I don't get left behind. It is so hard and I feel myself becoming more cold hearted and thats not my nature at all. The hard part even though we are going thru all this we are like great friends. We can talk about anything. It is so strange. Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy and I need to just break away.. Its hard when you want them to just give you a chance but in all reality I don't know if they will let go of the past and see what we really are or its easier for them to keep us in the past and that lets them feel like they are justified in what they are doing. I have had the thought of going out with someone just to see the reaction. I had a guy call me and ask me to dinner the other night he thought we were divorced. I wouldn't have went out with him anyway I don't want to go there. Maybe if a Tom Selleck or some one came by. Just maybe the decision would be tough.....
Well enough of that. Hey Hang in there!!!! We will make it!!!Life will go on with us or with out us....So lets Be strong.....
