Broke the rules last night and got tagged by the W.

W called and I can hear S in the backgroun screaming for daddy, and saying he wants to go to daddy's house. W asks how long this behavior has been going on, since she doesn't believe me when I tell her. Then she asks what he does and I explain again, sitting at the door, won't let anyone hold him, screams for mommy all night.

W breaks down and says she is not doing well since she knows now that she is hurting S. Says she wants to come home but that it would be only for S and that we have nothing. I listened and validated until she said that the pain S was having was my fault. Broke the rules at that point, I didn't yell but I told W she left, not me. Said I know I haven't been the best H but her refusal to work on our R and the consequences of that choice are hers to shoulder. Told her that she knows where I stand and that I want to work things out.

W then tells me that she wants to work things out but that I'm a horses backside and she can't. She finally ends the call saying she can't talk anymore and has to attend to S.

I chased her right back into the castle. Every freaking time! I need to set up some type of trip wire between my picnic and the castle so that when I chase it snars me. I'm a fool and I'm going to kill this, I don't want to be the one that feels I did, so I better learn to back off.


Me: 31
W: 31
S: 2
Bomb 6-24-07
Seperated 6-24-07
W Filed October
Temp. Hearing 11-26-07
Completely Sober Jan. 2, 08.