Well, the withdrawing wasn't really my intention, but doing it helped me not be mopey, KWIM? That's helping me to be stronger. I don't want to stay withdrawn, but it beats the daylights out of mopey. It also has the side benefit of not encouraging her to rescue me due to petulence, nor my getting down because of her "doing me" to prop me up rather than for her own reasons.
I think these are all really great revelations and understanding you are having. Whether you intended certain outcomes or not... you made some discoveries by paying attention and keeping your awareness up.
You did bring up an interesting point... 'it's all about ME today,' and the whole concept of the Center of the Universe Chair. This is going to sound like one big contradiction... 'this exercise of 'self' is the one of the most effective ways to keep yourself OUT of that comfy cozy C.U. Chair...
