{{{Sara, Kat, mk}}} Thanks for checking in on me...I slept pretty well, and am up early to get the kids ready for the first day of school.
Yes, I have to let him go. He has even come right out and asked me to. He said that it doesn't have to be as hard as I am making it...I really don't understand that statement very much, except that he thought I should have moved on long ago, that he has been telling me since Feb that our M was over for him. He told me yesterday that he hoped I never experience that day when he realized that he put it 21 years, and had nothing to show for it, no love left for me at all.
Kat, I am grateful for the changes that I have made, and the goals I've been defining and planning with. I don't think I have been this in tune with myself since I was a teenager. That is a good thing. And it seems that he will miss out on all of it.
mk--We filed for a legal sep, not a divorce. So I want to stand by my morals and wait until after the final hearing before dating. Even then, we technically are still married, but legal sep can be indefinite, so it really does terminate the bond. My vows meant something to me that I don't want to loose.
Oh, well. First day of work. I will finally have something steady to get my mind off of this whole mess (at least a little bit). Thank you all for being "there" with me yesterday. I did right by my kids.
