Nothing to update, seen H today, he took the kids so I could go to a women's function with the church. My heart just was not into it. Seems like a day or two after we have a good day, I get down.
Feeling really down and miserable, just so upset at him right now, and feel all those original emotions when this first happened coming back.
He was at my house and used my computer to send via email the letter he gave me when he first asked for the seperation to his nephew. The entire letter is about all my flaws, and all the things I have ever done that made him mad and why he wants the seperation. The only reason I know this is because my foster son told me and I was able to see in the history (he thought he erased it all). what is the point of that? is it to get everyone to believe his rantings and turn against me? I am sure it is.
today i am in just total awe that i spent twelve years with this man and I have no idea who he is or who he has become and how can do what he is doing to me and the kids with a straight face.
