It has just hit me. I understand what everyone else has been talking about regarding their other being "emotionally unavailable."
Anytime my H has ever needed anything, I am always there. Even if it's just to talk...
Today, I don't know why, just had a really bad day. Woke up bummed out, then my youngest got into my drawer in the bathroom and got out a nice shade of nail polish and dumped it all over the carpet. Now, my house is on the market as of Friday and the guy was coming over today to take pictures. It just killed me. I bawled. Needed to get money from H because I was out of diapers, so I called and left him a message so I could meet him at work on his lunch. He said that was fine, could tell something was wrong and asked. I told him I was just having a bad day... He said that he thought I was okay with everything, I admitted that I'm not, that I just don't cry when we talk so he'll talk to me. So, I met him for lunch. He hugged and kissed the kids. I barely got a hello. Not that he wasn't polite, just didn't really say much. Went to leave and he wanted a kiss. I just looked at him because I didn't know what to think.
So, I called him back tonight around 7, I was feeling a lot better and wanted to talk with him. He was with a friend, I said he sounded busy so I would let him go. He said he was, but that he would call me later... he hasn't called.
Now, if it were reversed, whatever plans I had, I would have cancelled them because he needed someone to talk to. That much was obvious. But I can't even get a phone call back?
I was sad about it earlier, then I got to thinking about it and what a jerk he is. Now I'm just mad. Then I thought more about it and realized he's just that way.
Is this something/someone I really want in my life? Someone that makes me feel like I don't matter at all?
