Ponygirl, I have those same thoughts and feelings... H will think I am doing just great- which, in a way, I am. But that doesn't mean I don't want the marriage. It just means I am not pining away, waiting for him . Because with my H, the chance of him doing something other than what he is doing (absolutely nothing) seems pretty infintessimal. (sorry about the botched spelling).

I am counting on the Lord to do what He needs to do because, quite honestly, my H's thoughts, attitudes and behaviors are out of my control. I am only responsible for me.

And I think, for both of us, we need to keep doing what we're doing. The final outcome is still far away. And if the outcome isn't OUR desired outcome, at least we didn't waste our life, waiting, and doing nothing.


"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalms 27:14

Me: 53
H: 56
Married: 1998
S 25 (not at home)
SS 25 (not at home)
Sep 5/05- 8/05
Sep briefly 11/06
Sep 5/07
Served D papers 7/28/07