Ok, today wasn't a bad day. Was actually able to focus at work. Talked to W this morning. I know I'm not suppose to talk about R. Did a little bit anyway due to problems to sleep last night. Some positive info in regards to W. She said she is willing to take her time and evaluate things. She does want to see the changes in me and see if they are permanent. That is some hope. I do hope that the W will want to resume interaction after a little time.... It would be nice to be able to move forward slowly. I think I'll be ok with the separation if eventually there is positive progress.
Went to see a counselor/pastor this afternoon. Just some initial stuff. Said that he's dealt with a lot of divorced people and divorce support groups. Almost all the people that are divorced said they wish they didn't do it. Basically you trade one set of pain for another set. Except that the first set can be healed and the second set will always be there. Especially when kids are involved. Things that you wish the WAS would hear....
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
