Stop snooping, sweetie. And...well...does it really matter what happened when you were apart? You can't change it. So, here and now is all that matters. Guess what else? If H is going to cheat, you can't stop him.
So do what Rob said and work on YOU. Stay detached...even now when my M is really, really great, staying detached and GAL are my two best strategies.
Let go of the fear. Let go of the notion that you have any control over anyone but yourself.
Love you. Make you happy. H is responsible for himself.
Love you sweetie!
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!