I don't know . When he came to me last year asking me for a L separation, he told me it was no one's fault that it just didn't work out between us and that he didn't hate me. My reply was " but I don't understand why you won't at least try." "I thought we had a good M, yes we had some problems but they could have been worked out." He got all defensive and left.
Before that day and after that he treated and continues to treat me horrible. Nasty words and tons of projections and blame onto me. He trys to find fault in everything I do- still!
The Ow has been in his life the entire time, but of course he will not own up to it. " I knew her as a friend at work, nothing happened between us until after I broke it off with W!" This is what he tells his family.
Yeah, that's why he was making secret calls from our house and his cell phone to her while still with me!!!
So when made his little speech to me he contradicted himself and I NEVER heard him say he was sorry for anything! He acted like he hated me from day one of the bomb dropping.
Would you count what he said as saying he was sorry?? I think he just wanted me to agree and sign the papers so this is why he was being fairly decent that day.
I sure hope he is unhappy with her. He came here tonight to pick up d7. He still has trouble looking me in the eye when he speaks to me. He catches himself looking and then he quick looks down or away.
I want to believe he still loves me, but 2 1/2 years later. I feel no love from him.
I broke my finger on Saturday-- slammed it in the car door! I am okay though. GOt sitches and it is pretty sore, but I'm fine. Anyway, d7 told her dad. He asked her how I did it and where etc. , but tonight when he saw me he said nothing to me about it. I remember last winter I fell on the ice and got a bad bruise on my knee. He was concerned and even called me to see if I was okay. I feel like over the course of these past 2+ years he has been continuing to detach from me. Now he doesn't even care that I got hurt and broke my finger!
It's hard to believe he cares one bit for me anymore.
