Trudging up hill

[Have Faith]

EM - that was quite a tantrum. I hope you feel better now. I can remember one night right after my H moved out laying on the floor in my laundry room kicking my feet and flailing my arms crying and screeming as loud as I could until I was too tuckered out to do it anymore. I found out why 2 year olds do it. It really released a lot of stress. I'm sure if someone would have seen me, they would have had me committed.

I think I remember you saying that you have a tendency to mother your H. Maybe he is waiting for you to unpack the boxes for him. Maybe he thinks, she packed them, let her unpack them. Just a thought.

We all look for signs. We hang on everything they do and say. I read something in someone elses post today that really makes sence. We really do not know what they are thinking unless they are willing to share their thoughts. We make all kinds of assumptions that may or may not be true. I know that I do. When my H does share I'm about 50% right and 50% wrong.

I know it's crazy to fixate on this stuff, I really try not to. I just can't help but feel like he's not really in this

It is crazy to fixate on this stuff. Again, we all do it. Just because you feel someway, doesn't mean that he does.

I can't wait for you to attend Retrouvaille and come back and tell us your success story. I wish there was one somethere close to where I live.

Hang in there. Three weeks isn't so long from now. Just look at how long you have waited to get to this point. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

Faith