Trying to be positive - with hope

[limbo]

So I told H how I was feeling down, and he asked me why, I told him because I can't figure out why he tells me he wants to leave, and can't stay and then changes back.
At first he says he doesn't know why, and doesn't know why he went back to ow.
However through the course of the conversation, he says he thinks that all he deserves is her, that I deserve better, he still is full of guilt, he also didn't want the kids getting his bad morales, or lead them by example, so he thought it was better to leave.
So I told him that he can't let the guilt eat away at us, and we have to put it behind us, and don't you think it would be a stronger example to the kids to see us fight through this and come out the other side, better and stronger and still together.
I told him I believed he was still a good man who had a weak period, and that he was coming back from that.
He told me to stop because I was going to make him cry, and that "he loved me dearly" and he was going to put me on the pedestal I deserve!
I told him that wasn't what I wanted, but that diamonds were a good place to start!!!!

So I have hope again, and I am looking forward to the retrouville weekend, I believe that it will set us in the right direction...fingers crossed!