HBT - Where the h*ll have you been?!?!?!?! I needed you!!!!!
Seriously - I did think about you all week and hoped you were doing a little better than I was....and it sounds like you did.
Remember what we said a while ago - don't take the temperature of your marriage on a daily (or minute by minute) basis. This is a long ride - and it will be the most h*llish rollercoaster you have ever been on. Yes, he has shown some positive signs - but to hang all of your hope on those could be very discouraging to you down the road. Look at the big picture and balance the positives and the negatives. And remember that you and I are just at the beginning of this journey, adventure, road to h*ll or whatever you want to call it. We have a long way to go here and can't fool ourselves into thinking that our H's are special and will come out of this sooner than others here on the board.
Honey - you really need to take care of yourself so you can care for your kids!!!! Have you thought about seeing someone, a counselor or therapist? It may help for you to talk to someone and may also prevent you from talking about your R with your H. It may also help with your anxiety so you can be strong through all of this....
We all understand the broken feeling - but you are the only one that can fix you if you are broken... You need to GAL - that really will help. It is so bad when you are home alone and dwelling...... And it is so hard to pick yourself up when you do that. It will help you to take your mind off of things.
You can't control him - he will do what he will do. The only one you can control is you. Work on you. Focus on you.
The rejection is hard. Someone here wrote that they feel like they have been erased and I really understand that feeling - I felt this way all weekend. This is something that I continue to struggle with.
While I am glad that you are back, I'm sorry that you still need to come here. But we are happy to have you and will be here for you when you need us.
