So, Saturday night I go down to my golf club and have dinner by myself. Talk to a couple of people and then leave around 8:00 to go to a 8:40 movie. Saw Hairspray. It was a good musical. Travolta was really good in it. Got home about 11:20. No call from H. He thinks I'm on a date.
Sunday morning I'm up early. Can't sleep. Get ready for church and hope that H is going to show up. He doesn't. I get home and H shows up at the house around 12:30. He doesn't come in, but I see him in the yard pulling weeds and watering my flower pots (which I already watered at about 7:30 am).
We play golf and it is a slow day on the course. Not many people there so the pace is really nice. He is relaxed and we are having fun and talking. On about the 13th hole I ask H why whenever I wanted to go to the theater or to the winery he wouldn't go, but he does with OW. He says, first off I have not gone very many places with OW. Also, I have finally come to the conclusion that life isn't all about work. I say will that is nice, but now you decided that. I go about making a life by myself because you aren't available and now when all of this is happening, you decide that you were wrong. It makes me angry that she is going to get that and not me. He says it doesn't have to be her that gets it, it just might be you. (well, aren't I lucky!). We continue golf another 4 holes and he is open to talk about R. He says that we get along and can talk better now then anytime in our whole relationship. I say, well yes, because for the first time you are willing to open up and talk. We continue to talk and enjoy our golf.
We have dinner at the club and then go home. We get home and more R talk. He says, I'm afraid that I have hurt you too much. I say well, everyday that you do not commit to us you just dig the wound deeper. We can't work on us while she is still in the picture. He says he has had a very emotional week and he is feeling emotions for me that surprise him. He says that he misses me even when he is with her. (Oh great!) The whole time he is holding my hand.
It is late and time for bed. He thinks he is going to stay. I say, it is probably better if you don't stay the night. It is too hard on me. He is surprised and says well it is late, I just thought I would be spending the night here. Can I sleep in the spare bedroom. I give in an say that he can. I go to bed and he comes in my room to kiss me good night. Not a peck, but a real senual kiss. That is #3 in 1 1/2 weeks.
Have received 2 e-mails from H thanking me for the fun time yesterday. Of which I took 2 hours before I replied and only said "your welcome".
So my imaginary boyfriend is taking me out on Wednesday. H said something about coming over to the house to do some work and I told him that I would be out. Let him stew on that for awhile.
Feeling hopeful.
Faith
H 48 W 57 M 15 yrs T 18 yrs No children EA 1/12/06 Moved out 3/10/07 & 8/16/07 Back on 5/18/07 2nd Thread
He says, first off I have not gone very many places with OW. Also, I have finally come to the conclusion that life isn't all about work. 
I say will that is nice, but now you decided that. I go about making a life by myself because you aren't available and now when all of this is happening, you decide that you were wrong. It makes me angry that she is going to get that and not me. He says it doesn't have to be her that gets it, it just might be you. (well, aren't I lucky!). We continue golf another 4 holes and he is open to talk about R. He says that we get along and can talk better now then anytime in our whole relationship. I say, well yes, because for the first time you are willing to open up and talk. We continue to talk and enjoy our golf.
