Maybe if I put it this way it will help. You and I are both in love with your old wives. So much so, it hurts to see them leave. But guess what, they didn't leave, the morphed into the aliens first and the alien left. No matter what you do, who you are, how you change, we all have to face the fact that our S is GONE!!! You will never have that S back again. The experiance is to profound and to deep to not have an everlasting effect on the R be it good or bad.
This isn't to say you can't have a new R with the changed S. My W is gone, she will never be that W I had before, even if she were to come home. That is when I realized that I wasn't dealing with her. Honestly, if she came begging at my door I don't know if I could accept right now, next week or ever. I might be done, I might not be. I'm fine with that, I still breath and believe it or not I'm alive and sun shines.
Just get to that place where there is peace with you and from there anything is possible and it will be YOUR CHOICE!
