Last I was feeling a little down and ASSuming/doubting that my H REALY has a business trip & not another "honeymmon" w/ OW.I was letting it get to me. So I wanted H to have me in his mind & I decided to be a little naugty adn I texted him a message that maybe if he wanted I can meet him at his hotel(in town, BTW) and we can get "freaky" for he knows what hotels do to me...I told him I will give him the time of his life like never before. Sunday I was alarmed by H's freind who cuts our lawn.I was in the backyard cleaning out the pool (big,but not an underground) so I can put it away in the garage. Besides the naughty text message I (sacastically) said "thanks 4 letting me know your grass guy was coming b/c I was brawless in the backyard"!
Well, H just called me at work and asked me if I was laying out in the backyard topless! I said no. H- oh I see you had a shirt on,but no braw? yes...
Anyhoo, he gets to chit chat about other things (our misundertanding of him picking up the girls yesturday).said he rode his motorcycle all day (ALONE no OW).
M-Oh she let you go by yourself? H- I do what I ant you know? M- Well, u use to never go anywhere w/out her. H- Well, things have changed, I dont care anymore(????). I do what I want. H- THis whole weekend I spent it bymyself and at my dad's. My dad is depressed and I stayed there I had too many beers w/ him. He talked about the good spanish home cooked meal he had overthere that he misses(hmmmmmm).
NOW heres the kicker- I am gonna try to not get my hopes up toooo much.....this is how the convo went:
H- I have realized somethings... M- oh yeah what is that? H- your right it is my fault M- (silence) H- the promblem lies within me, but I dont want to say too much b/c you will only throw it back in my face! M- no maybe the old me,but not anymore H- I dont know if I am staying at the hotel M- why will u miss her too much(i know bad of me) H- see there u go again, no I will miss YOU too much????? <insert- why would he miss me? We arent living together? M- (pause) <I made no comment regarding that> <insert- I kinda wish he would stay at the hotel as seeing some alone time away from OW always does him good and gets him thinking about US. M- (I changed the subject)my granfather is leaving next Saturday and so heres your chance to do your step family thing again w/ her. I might take them to Orlando.but not sure yet. If I do you can have the girls over night. H- What step family thing? M- You know you take them everywhere, the zoo, etc w/ HER. H- Nope. not anymore I dont. This will be my alone time daddy & the girls time /w no one else (sure well see). M- well ok H- OK I might call tongiht or tomorrow...to tlak to the girls M- Ok talk to you later.
