Thanks for the responses!!! It was easier when H was depressed and miserable; it's more difficult to know he is so happy. I feel like our marriage was a sham although I do have some happy memories tucked away somewhere. I'll start counseling in Sept. I obviously need it! Maybe I can have H pay for the extra counseling--three sessions probably won't be enough!! I am determined to be happy, too.
A new day! Back to school for D16. Hopefully it will be a good year for her. Wish she had more support from her dad, but she seems ok with the 2 hour contact per week. If her dad turns her down for something it's ok because "he's busy". If I turn her down it's because I'm a mean mom. Lovely!
Maybe I can have H pay for the extra counseling--three sessions probably won't be enough!! 
I am determined to be happy, too. 
Hopefully it will be a good year for her. Wish she had more support from her dad, but she seems ok with the 2 hour contact per week. If her dad turns her down for something it's ok because "he's busy". If I turn her down it's because I'm a mean mom. Lovely! 
