Why do these things happen lX

[789]

I am giving it time, I just stick my big toe in the water every once in a while, nothing overboard.

[789]

LOL, guess who wants to come over again for dinner..........
Told ya I was cute and cuddly

[mkultra]

Are you attentive or not? What is a 180 for you? What has been working nd what has not been working? My D's therapist said I no longer existed to my H so now I feel that nothing I do matters so I may as well just be completely honest and keep some integrity. Not so DB, sorry. Your sitch is very promising.

[SallyM]

so did you say yes...did she come for dinner? and did she stay for dessert?

[789]

I was not attentive, I always had other things to do or a beer to drink. So now with DB'ing I really can't be attentive as a 180 because that is the last thing she wants. The biggest 180 I can do is not drink and be the best dad and person that I can. So I am just letting things go and she can do as she pleases, I don't ask or do much of anything in regards to her. She does still call me over for dinner and invites herself over here.
She came over tonight, she might as well of stayed home. She came, ate and left. Other than sons lunch schedule she did not talk to me, oh well, her loss.

[789]

I have been trying to let go, tonight just didn't work out that way for me. This is the first time in a long while that I actually got pissed off after she left.

[SallyM]

sorry things didn't go well tonight...but 2 steps forward, one back, right? who knows what tomorrow will bring.

[789]

Probably, but tonight I am just in a pissed off mood, guess it didn't help she acts so............STUPID, she took money out of my account again today, another $300, I was just waiting for her to tell me tonight, but nope. She is living in some fantasy world and I guess I am having the male version of PMS right now.

[SallyM]

does chocolate work on guys, too? c'mon, I'll make you some cookies.

[789]

Maybe I have just been lying to myself with hope. I have not broken down in over a month and right now I am ready to just lose it. I spent 3 hours today printing up her College crap and punching holes and sticking it in a stupid binders since she does not have a computer, she didn't ask me too. But dammit I love her and wanted to do something nice. Should of used the CD for it as a frisbee and made her do it herself