Good luck tomorrow. On the subject of what he did to you, I think the lying in the face of what you could see and feel, so that you doubted your own sanity was the biggest thing. And it occurred to me that your pain was so palpable, I felt it here in Florida. I had trouble sleeping nights worrying about you -- a stranger, who I had never met -- and your husband wouldn't even give you the truth so you could make sense of the situation. (Don't mention that I tend toward insomnia.) Hugs.