Oh honey you are not gullible. You've been with this man for 30 years, Yes, I once had blind trust (only married 16 years) and I don't anymore, its not being gullible its how your supposed to feel. You shouldn't have to worry or wonder, that's the sad part. Yet, we find ourselves doing it because of what we have been through.

We are all a creature of habit, so am I. Sleeping on the same side of the bed.. that's me.. when my H is away, I still sleep on my side.

We all have bad days, don't be so hard on yourself. As far as the checking up.... its not dbing.. but EVERYONE does it, don't feel bad!

Chin up and do something for you!

TAL

me: 37
H: 44
Married for 18 years this june
S7
S3
porn issues, and much more... since 7/06

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.