About wondering what God wants as far as standing and the messages you've been waiting for. I've been having a crisis of sorts about this too and so very confused about what God wants for me. Just this a.m. got the thought that I just need to be still some more and hopefully I will get the message.
You said "he should have walked away and not looked back. But instead anytime I started getting healthy he would pull me back." How I wished for that in my sitch instead of my H walking away w/o ever looking back! But I see how a sitch like yours can be difficult in a different way. The one thing I wonder about is, if my H had stayed in my life a little bit, if I might've watched him change into someone I was no longer interested in -- as I think you have -- and maybe then my feelings for him would have cooled. But instead I just have these memories of how he always was, and in the few times I heard from him after his initial post-bomb freaked out time, he seemed the same . . . the same person I always loved.
Anyway I guess we'll be "being still" together. In the meantime, good luck w/ the move and school. If nothing else you are continuing to move forward, and certainly that can't be a bad thing.
