Do I want him back?

[forward]

Well, H brought up topic of D1 CS. Said he'd give it to me tomorrow. This month I am taking it easy on spending.

Caught him staring at me again. I do look good. Was listening to my interesting CDs again. Have gotten into habit of leaving H w/D1 while I do stuff like clean, pick flowers, etc.. H's visits have extended somewhat, from about 20 minutes to 40. So I guess that is good.

But it is time to stop obsessing on H's actions. I've decided to put more energy into exercising, both to burn off all the negative energy and to look good. I want to be all about me and today I was realizing that I have needed to give myself this kind of attention for a long time!