TielBeagle, Hope you had a good bday and Vday. It's so funny (interesting) how I find your posts so calm, especially as you speak of yourself as a previous B****, or moody, etc. I just don't believe it.
Mostly, I want to thank you for continuing to visit us here on the BB. Hope is something that keeps the human being alive, and I could imagine how easy it would be to walk away from here once you get what you wanted... the M.
I love the part about "love in his eyes" but I also know that there will always be the hard times, as displayed in your post about a week ago when H went to some class for the evening. That was an interesting post too, as typically I see you posting about the big picture and not getting caught up the the fragments of the itsy-bitsy picky stuff. You know, your M will never be "perfect", as how else could we grow and learn if we don't have the bumps and obstacles to test our strengths. Perfection is boring, anyway.
I think about you and the specifics of your situation sometimes and think that if only I did this or that, but I realize that each sitch is different, and we relate to one another the best we know how. I love it that your H is there, I love it that you didn't let him cake-eat. I think it's ok that he's not wearing his wedding ring yet; it's an indication that there may still be lessons to learn and the only lesson may be that there might be a lesson to learn and you have to be open to it. I know that I have no "authority" to say all this. My M is still in the failure stage, but somehow I feel you listening to me and I think I say things that strike a chord w you, or open you up a bit to another realm. Even on this BB we make up our own realities, just like in our R's, I guess. I hope that this post makes you realize that I'll be ok no matter what, and some of that is due to you. SS
