You are in the right place. Keep reading. Keep posting. Keep praying. Church should not feel difficult, so don't let it. Jesus didn't come to save all the perfect people, ya know. He came for the ones who are a little charred around the edges...you, me your hubby, and everyone else on these boards.
You are going through a lot right now and the one thing that will help most is time. The only way you will know if the changes are real and permanent is time. He has a track record of disappointing you and needs to discover why he does what he does. For now, be content he is willing to try.
